They don’t say “Come in, let’s have a seat at our soul-table and feast together.”
I guess sometimes we’re selling ourselves as mannequin displays. This can become less and less satisfying over time. We’re hungry for something that’s not being served. Maybe we don’t feel interesting enough…to ourselves. So we dress it up and snapshot-share so we can get feedback and messages from other people’s comments about who we are and how we must feel.
That’s kinda backwards. It’s incredible that we don’t know how we feel (other than superficially) 80% of the time.
But I guess that’s how the journey to the banquet starts…dissatisfaction with the menu options.
This is also known as awareness.
Awareness is an opportunity to check-in, self-reflect and express. Our lives feel more meaningful, rich and animated as we satisfy our appetite for self-awareness and growth.
Aliveness comes from something beyond performance and pose. It comes from what messages we are feeding ourselves and others. This affects our energy.
Aliveness is felt in the body as energy. If it’s well-bred and well-fed, it’s your true nature kicking into gear from neutral or backwards.
Being out of neutral or reverse means you have drive through fears like rejection, the unknown, vulnerability, exposure, truth and change. No Easy Button there!
It’s dirty work for sure…and no one else can do it for you. 😳 This work is like the opposite of slave-driven pyramid construction. This is the solitary and unique exploration of what it means to set yourself free.
I’m on this experiential trip with myself. I’m going deeper.
For decades I forgot that as a kid I wanted to be an archaeologist.
I finally remembered 5 years ago, and thanks to my semi-addicted dedication to The Dig, I’ve unearthed more personal dinosaurs, pirate treasure, bags of garbage and unidentified lying objects than ever before.
At this 49th year I’m at a crossroads again. I have the most information about the anatomy of myself to work with. The bones are exposed, and the debris is cleared. Time to wash the tools and lay in the wheelbarrow for a break. There’s so much relief and weight lifted!
I can breathe down here in this space and my energy is returning. I can hear the heartbeat of a new thing.
I can’t wait to see what this personal excavation brings into sight when I get the aerial view. I have a feeling it’ll be quite the 3D masterpiece.